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Wednesday, September 25, 2013

#PeopleAroundUs Day 15: About Him

[Fiction]




I will marry this man in front of me in the next couple of months. Heck, I’m more terrified than excited.

Is he the one?

Am I willing to live my entire life with him?

Does he love me wholeheartedly?

Well, look at him. He is more concerned about game stuffs and soccer. What can I say? He married them already. Obviously, I will be his third wives.

We supposed to talk about all the wedding preparation, the caterings, the invitations, the ceremonies and other stuffs… But what did he said? “Wait, babe. Abis  game kedua ya? Abis itu we could talk.” After 45 minutes cheering his soccer team, did we finally talk? Oh no, he’s busy playing Pokopang and Candy Crush.

Sometimes I am not sure if I’m about to marry a 28 years old grown up man or a 14 years old teenager.

But, that’s him.

That is the man I fall in love with. The man who I will end up spend the rest of my life with. I gotta admit despite he puts me the third after soccer and games, I always love watching the smile and eye crease form in his face after he and his team scored goals and all the excitement. Although if they don’t and he starts being a jerk complaining about the game, I know my role to make he smiles again. 

…and the most important thing is, every time I start to be freaky about wedding (and many others), he always be the one who comfort me and calm me down. He will listen to me talk for hours and hours and hours about stupid shit that doesn’t matter.

“Pokoknya abis main Pokopang, kita harus ngobrol ya!  Pokopang and Candy whatever itu won’t pay all the bills, lho.”

“Oke, babe.” And there, he kissed me at my forehead. And just like that I forget how I ever have a doubt in the first place.

Oh yes, I want to marry him.
Saturday, September 14, 2013

#PeopleAroundUs Day 4: I wish

I wish I could travel more
I wish I could eat more without gaining more weight
I wish I had a nice house near seaside
I wish I had a nice and big telescope
I wish I was surrounded with people I love and who love me
I wish I had more courage to move forward
I wish I always remembered what make me smile and be more gratitude
I wish to have better personality 
I wish my parents had no more worries
I wish my family and my best friend had a great life and surrounded with happiness
I wish for more good and honest politicians
I wish people who were looking for something finally found what they were looking for
I wish kindness always won over hatred in our daily lives
I wish all children were save in warm arms
I wish my great grand children could see lion, tiger, elephant and other great animals in the zoo
I wish for less ignorance people
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I wish all great wishes come true


"...and thou shall endeavour"
Friday, September 13, 2013

#PeopleAroundUs Day 3: Maktub, It Is Written

Masih teringat jelas tentang suatu percakapan setengah ghibah di sore hari sepulang kuliah sekitar empat tahun lalu di sudut penuh hiruk pikuk pujasera.

"Guys, menurut kalian di antara anak kelas kita yang duluan nikah siapa?" 

Suatu pertanyaan tebak-tebakan buah manggis memecah keheningan di antara kami ber-lima. Tanpa berpikir panjang setiap orang mulai melontarkan jawaban dari asumsinya masing-masing.

"Gue rasa si A deh. Dia pacarannya udah lama banget soalnya."
"Kalau gue kayaknya si B deh. Liat aja deh dia aja sekarang kayak gimana sama pacarnya. Daripada dia stress tuh pacarnya nyangkut di orang lain, mending dinikahin deh. Kelarrr."
"Kalau dari sisi kematangan, kayaknya si C deh."
"Eh jangan kira. Jangan-jangan yang alim diem kayak si D malah yang nikah duluan. Biasa, ta'aruf gitu."
"Si E lah kayaknya. Dia kan udah koar-koar pengen nikah muda."

Iye yak, enak bener nebak-nebak jalan hidup orang lain.

"Nah! Lo sendiri emang pada mau nikah umur berapa emangnya?" 

Tiba-tiba muncul pertanyaan yang menonjok ulu hati (secara semuanya pada jomblo, cyiiiin~).

"Gue masih lama!"
"Sama. Gue juga masih lama."
"Gue umur 26 atau 27 kali yah."
"Iya, gue juga umur segituan."
"Gue pengennya lima tahun lagi lah. Kejar karir dulu. Tapi emak gue pengennya begitu gue lulus langsung dinikahin. Lha mau dinikahin sama siapa coba. Lha wong jomblo."

Iya memang benar manusia hanya bisa berencana, tapi takdir berkata lain and still with all the perfect asumtions or theories no one could expect the future exactly. Nyatanya, siapa sangka justru satu di antara kami ber-lima malah termasuk salah satu yang terlebih dahulu mengikat mahligai perkawinan~ 

"Maktub, it is written"

Wish you both shared wonderful marriage life, madam :')

Thursday, September 12, 2013

#PeopleAroundUsDay 2: Awas Ada Ombak



Pada suatu siang yang cerah di Pantai Siung, two friends of mine were sitting on a big rock.

"Gue kalau disuruh milih antara ke gunung atau ke pantai, gue pasti milih pantai."
"Kenapa gitu?"
"Entahlah. Bawaannya tenang aja gitu. Kalau gue yah, ngeliat garis horizon di sana tuh selalu kepikiran di laut ujung sana ada apaan ya?"
"Ada Ostrali."
"Eh iye yak."
"Kalau gue nih, gue sukanya ngeliat ombak. I don't know why. Tapi gue mikir: Iya yah, feeling is like waves. Dengan trigger yang mungkin salah satunya berupa angin, ombak itu akan selalu balik ke tepian. Kayak kata orang nih: Feelings are much like waves, we can't stop them from coming...."
"...but we can choose which one to surf."
"Nyet! ITU OMBAK GEDE DI DEPAN! GUE GA BAWA BAJU GANTI!!!!!"
"AAAAAAAAA...KAMPRET GUE GA BISA RENANG!"



Wednesday, September 11, 2013

#PeopleAroundUs Day 1: Everywhere I Go, All I See Is You


They said travel can heal your heartache, but how could it possible since I travelled across the ocean and all my senses told me that you’re around?

I saw your reflection through the window of this train which brought me across Java.
I smelled your favorite cologne in the ocean breeze.
I heard your laugh in the crowd of Malioboro.
And the weird thing was, when I was in high altitude of Semeru, I felt warm since I could sense your existence around me. 
Friday, June 28, 2013

"Oleh-oleh buatku mana?"

Yak, akui sajalah kalau diantara teman-teman Indonesia kita masih ada budaya nodong "oleh-olehnya dooong~". Sebel sih sebel. Tapi coba deh tanya diri lo sendiri, kalau temen lo abis jalan-jalan, lo masih suka minta oleh-oleh kagak? *JENG! JENG! JENG!*

Gue sendiri sih udah mulai tau diri. Secara travelling itu sendiri aja biayanya udah banyak gitu, apalagi kalau dibebani oleh-oleh. Udah gitu ada pula yang masih ngomel, "dih jauh-jauh ke sana, cuma dapet gantungan kunci doang?" Denger komentar gitu biasanya gue jadiin sesajen buat Nyi Roro Kidul  bales, "ye~ syukur gue masih inget bawain lo." Kecuali di destinasinya ada yang emang gue cari, biasanya gue nitip dan either gue bayar duluan atau nunggu barangnya ada atau enggak. Itupun selalu gue tekankan kalau si traveller enggak repot buat nyarinya dan bawanya ga keberatan. Misalnya nih sebagai pelajaran, kemarin gue nitip temen gue yang lagi Euro trip untuk bawain cowok bule ganteng yang baik hati, jelas si temen pasti repot buat seleksi dan ga muat juga ditaruh di bagasi, alhasil ya ga bisa (IKI OPO SIH, CHA???).

Nah jadi kita sebagai teman yang baik hati dan budi pekerti sebaiknya mulai mengurangi nodong oleh-oleh (iye ngarep dalem hati aja boleh, tapi tetep woles atau malah nanti jadi luka luka luka yang ku rasa kan , bertubi tubi tubi yang kau berikan~ ♫ ). Tapi coba nodong cerita atau nodong itinerary mereka, siapa tau suatu saat kita bisa mengikuti jejak mereka melancong~

Oh iya, BTW belakangan ini gue perhatiin, ada dua hal baru yang sering jadi oleh-oleh atau titipan. Yang pertama adalah KARTU POS (dikirim langsung dari sononya). Selain harganya yang bersahabat, oleh-oleh semacam kartu pos ini tuh lebih terasa personal, tapi ya gitu lama nyampenya. Gue ngirim kartu pos ke Izmir dari Singapore udah hampir dua tahun kelelep di Samudra Hindia  ga nyampe-nyampe, padahal ngirim dari Jogja nyampenya sebulan. Yang kedua adalah TUMBLER STARBUCKS. Tiap negara yang punya chain coffee shop satu ini kayaknya selalu punya desain merchandise tumblernya dan ada tulisannya gede gitu, misalnya kalau dari London ya ada tulisan London gede gitu dan ada gambar menara Big Bennya. Lumayan buat pamer pas tiap tanggal 22 (jamaah starbakiyah kasta bawah pasti mengerti). Tapi ya gitu, mahal bray!


Saturday, April 13, 2013

Academics is Not Everything



Academics is not everything. You are not defined by your ability to get good grades or concentrate hard or keep it together. No one can hold themselves in place every single day of the year and stay sane. Sometimes you will unravel like loose twine and you are allowed to do that because you are human and beautifully so.  
It”s okay to admit to others that you’re having a difficult time, that the dark or your mother’s arms or your bed feels like the safest place in the world and your absences are becoming more and more like defeat because whenever you leave your home, the expectations of everyone who looks at you bring you to your knees and how the hell do they expect you to know what you want to do with yourself when you’re not even sure who you are yet.  
The thing about your brightness though, is that it’s not confined to school or college or figuring out what career you want and where you want to go. You want to be someone and go places and leave your fingerprints on the spaces you’ve touched but let me tell you that you already are. You are intelligent and shining and desperate to see how life twists itself into new and exciting things, but you’re not hopeless, okay? You’re not burdensome or weak because you get overwhelmed by all the directions you could take and sometimes those directions feel like chains tugging you to pieces so be lost for a while. It’s okay. Turn yourself inside out and explore the parts of you that make you happy and the ones that make you sad but do not let grades and professors and absences and essays ruin you. You are more than that and you are better than the shadows that cling to you.  
Let people hold you, learn to trust the ones who haven’t turned their backs even though you don’t answer the phone when they call, learn to take comfort from yourself, do beautiful things, take long walks, read long books that are worth reading and that have nothing to do with History or Science or Literature. Remember that you are allowed to buckle under pressure as long as you don’t let it drown you. Be okay with yourself, and then try for everything else. 

Amazing piece by 500letters (go visit her blog). Mbuh, gue pas baca tulisan ini kok ya langsung mbrebes mili gitu. Well, it's just all what I need sih (*lap ingus*). 

Hey 500letters, thanks a lot! It is beautifully written and it has given a little hope to me and probably for others, too ;) 


Saturday, April 6, 2013

Terbang Naik Pegasus Bukanlah Khayalan

Alkisah suatu hari terjadi perbincangan berbagai macam bahasa antara Baba Erhan dan gue di tengah-tengah makan malam keluarga the Çağlars...

(Jadi begini, si baba akan berbicara dengan campuran Bahasa Prancis, Jerman dan Turki, sedangkan gue pake Bahasa Inggris *tegak Ayran*. Agar tidak terjadi kesalahpahaman, sesekali kami berbahasa "main tunjuk-tunjuk aja di kamus English - Turkish")

Baba: Kemarin dari İstanbul ke İzmir naik apa?
Gue: Naik bis. Bisnya keren. Ada WiFi-nya *dengan tatapan haru*
Baba: Wah, kok naik bis? Kenapa gak naik Pegasus aja?
Gue: .... (*bengong* *liat kalender* Wah, jangan-jangan gue lagi sejaman sama Ken Dedes nih) *sambil ketawa* Waduh, kalau naik kuda, tas dan koper gue aja ada 4 biji. Kasihan kudanya.
Ya bayangin aja bentukan gue sama Arien naik beginian menuju khayangan
Baba: *bengong*
Gue: *ikutan bengong* (waduh ternyata garing yak?) Eh ini ngomongin Pegasus yang kuda itu kan? Yang warna putih dan ada sayapnya? *tunjukin horse di kamus*
The Çağlars: *kompakan ngakak* Dasar bocah! Pegasus itu nama pesawat! *masih ngakak*
Ya gitu, kalau gue ceritain begini emang garing sih yak. Tapi pas itu sekeluarga ngakak kenceng banget sampai air mata keluar gitu. Gue pas itu ya masang tampang bloon aja dong. Manalah gue ngerti kalau ternyata Pegasus yg mereka maksud itu ternyata salah satu budget airlines. Setelah balik ke kamar malah gue yang ketawa-ketawa sendiri bayangin gue dan Arien pake baju ala kekaisaran Yunani gitu terus naik kuda maburrr....

Jadi, jaman sekarang pun ternyata naik Pegasus tak lagi berupa hayalan semata, shayy... #terpampang_nyata #bukan_buaian #hidup_ini_bukan_sekedar_buaian_halusinasi_fatamorgana #adegan_grammy *gandeng PrincesSyahrini*


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Post kali ini ditulis dalam keadaan stress. Harap dimaklumi, paling ntar juga gue sendiri yang nyesel nulis beginian, hahahahahaha.... *WOOOYYY! Inget umur, Cha!*
Thursday, November 1, 2012

November Wish

November last year was awesome. I was the happiest girl alive.

No, it was not about winning big lottery or other extravagant moments. It was about finding my dream. A dream that I would love to do it in my whole life. It felt awesome when I finally knew what I want to do in life from just a simple conversation of two.

:sigh: I wish that November would last longer...

Yeah, nothing I could do about that.

So, I wish this November I could do the very first little step to achieve my dream.

Bismillah... Can I hear an amen?
Sunday, October 28, 2012

A Love Letter

Hey, we've might known each other just for few weeks, but you could instantly make me love you on the first sight.

I love you since some strangers lend me hands at dawn. Something that is really rare nowadays. Yeah, I know. I’m easy to please. But hey, smiles and kindness from strangers are good signs, aren’t they? Not to mention when I got bird droppings on my hair in a random afternoon and luckily a stranger offered me a tissue and helped me to clean my hair. I was more flattered than embarrassed at that moment.

I love you although I have no I idea how to “understand” you. It was spring already. I left all my coats. It supposed to be warm but what I got was bloody cold. I was freezing and thought you cheated me. But that was fine since I could find better way to "understand" you. Yeah but still, you surprised me sometimes.


I love the way you make me feel. I used to be that ah-not-that-interesting-girl-in-the-corner but you make me a catchy one, someone who always be caught on eyes. I enjoy that. You know, the feeling when the eyes of two people meet and linger on each other but eventually your eyes will drift apart but only to be caught gazing at each other only moments later. I know this might be because I’m an alien. I look different. Hahaha…I’m glad tho. I don’t need to have that killer body, perfectly carved face, long legs, racy clothes etc to get your attention.

I love you in every breakfasts, lunches and dinners. What cannot be loved from a warm fried egg with sausage, olive and warm milk in the morning? What cannot be loved from this pizza-like, thin, round dish, topped with herbs and minced meat served with hot apple tea for lunch? What cannot be loved from grilled meat with salty yogurt? Errr…well no no no. Not that plain nor salty yogurt please. Yeah, I have no idea why did you put yogurt on everything.

I love how we travel together. Exactly every 9:02 in the morning, I jumped into bus. I didn't mind if I had to travel an hour or more to get to another part of the city, as long as no more than 90 minutes or I need to pay more which I hate the most. I enjoy every moment and every glimpses of the city. Sometimes It's crowded and stuffy, but I didn't mind (well I don't know if I will love or hate it during summer). Sometimes we took ferry. I love to see the sunset and seagulls from the window. What can I say? It's marvelous! If we were in hurry, we took metro line couple of times. Do you remember about that freshman I met in Metro? Gosh! What's his name again? On weekend sometimes my family took us by their car. Baba was not that really good driver, but it's still okay for me. What I love was to listen the local music from the radio while the window was open. Woohoo! Road-trips! Wait a minute! Did I forget to mention that mini bus? Hahaha...that tricky driver. You told me if the mini bus is over crowded at night, the driver will turn off the lamp immediately when he sees police.

I love you in the rush hours and in the laid-back time. I love to watching you run in hurry and looking at your wristwatch minute by minute. I love to spend lazy afternoon with you at seaside just to watch people and give breadcrumb to pigeons. Sometimes we went to market. You always raised your elbow every time I carried shopping bag(s). Or the other time, I bought nothing. You know I always excited to smell the fresh lemon and stare at many kind of cheese. Too bad, we never visit any cafe. Next time, please show me the best cafe which serve the best coffee and nargile, okey?

I love your toddlers. They are the cutest ever. Less annoying than any toddlers I've ever known. They don't scream and cry much. I love the way they welcomed me. Their warm hugs, kiss on cheeks, hand-made flower clay and laughs make me easily falling in love with them.

I love the old you and the new you. I love your history which I thought I might only find it on my childhood books. I never had an idea to be this close to my pre-teen reverie. Again, you surprise me.

I do love you. I love your past and would love to live in your future. Wait for me, will you?

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ps: please mind my grammar :p